Mood Rating System

Nice to know that I can assign a specific mood rating to my current mood.

This week I have mostly been:
5 – Not depressed but not joyful either, in a state of existence,
“emotionally numb,” no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, no
monitoring necessary, some ability to function, borderline mood
(potential for instant change to a 4 or 6)

with intermittant:
6 – Mildly joyful, content, no suicidal and/or homicidal ideations, low functioning problems

Although ‘mildly joyful’ is out of place, absolutely no joy whatsoever, in any form!

Its been tough, especially as a year ago today I was in the pit of
despair, had the NHS Crisis team keeping an eye on me at a point in my
life where I was pretty damn low. So I am struggling with these
associations of a crap Christmas and New Year where I just stayed in my
cave. There is indication that some depressive swings can be linked to
seasonal changes, or yearly anniversary depressive events, a trigger as
such.

Finding it so hard to drum up any motivation for anything or
something at all. Will be glad when Christmas and New Years is over.